“Can I do this?” I kept asking myself. “Am I capable?”
The truth is, I hadn’t exercised in a long long time and I was scared.
For days prior to my first Fit By Design class I had worried about my ability. I had worried about what to wear. I worried about being so out of breath that I would have to give up. I worried that my ankles would give way beneath me.
I had avoided real exercise for most of my life. For starters, I wasn’t very good at it. I am not sure how I managed to come up with that conclusion, but I suspect that I had compared myself countless times to one of my more active, healthy friends. That was a big mistake. The truth is, I just didn’t want to fail, and sometimes, giving up is much easier than trying and failing.
Combine the expectancy of failure with a life time of over eating and you start heading down the road to serious health problems, weight issues, negative emotional patterns and zero energy.
Right about there, I had two choices.
I could go down the same path of self destruction, remain unhappy, unfit and hate myself for not trying. Or, I could make a serious commitment to change and do things gradually to increase my fitness, tackle my weight and regain some emotional balance.
I had considered joining a gym and spend hours walking on the treadmill but I had tried that before and failed. I did not want to make the same choices and repeat the pattern. I needed motivation and consistency which is exactly what I got from the Fit By Design “Mommy Wellness Challenge”. I was exercising at my own level, but I was making the change and being supported and encouraged. I wasn’t on my own at all. I was in a room full of women who had made the same decision as me, for their own reasons.
After my first six weeks I have more energy, I am able to do more and I am noticing the difference in my clothes and shape. As I enter the second six weeks I am feeling stronger and more confident in my ability. The feelings of inadequacy are no longer there because I am not comparing myself to anyone else. I am doing the best I can and that is all I can do.
The first step on the path of change might be the most difficult one, but it’s comforting knowing that others have faced the same challenges. Everyone is working to improve something, and in that, you are definitely not alone.