I will never forget that amazing evening last April when I had finally had enough of being and feeling unhealthy physically and emotionally. I sat down at the computer and googled “fitness classes for moms in Kamloops” and the very first site in my search was Fit by Design. Wow! How often do you find EXACTLY what you are looking for on the first try with a google search? The description of the mommy wellness workouts seemed to be written with ME in mind and the session was starting in 2 days!! First step--email the owner, Sabrina Sinclair, nice sounding name, and ask her if there was room in the class as the site showed the headline “classes filling fast”. I was so sure there wouldn’t be room and I was also VERY sure that considering the class was called Bootcamp, there would be no way an overweight, shy, embarrassed, emotional wreck with a 7 month old baby would even be able to do the class. My email was returned almost immediately by the lady with the nice sounding name (still trying to picture the type of person I was dealing with). I was pleasantly surprised with the response telling me that of course I could join and I would for sure be ABLE to do the class because everyone would be working at their own level! Sabrina left her phone number and said to give her a call in the morning. Well I did just that and when there was no answer, I tried again...and again...and I am sure there was another ‘again’ or 2 before I got a hold of her! Great first impression I’m sure! But it all paid off because here I am today almost a year later with that special day and that special lady with the nice sounding name and all of you hardworking ladies to thank for how far I have come and the obstacles that I have surpassed along the way!
My first Mommy’s Wellness Challenge Session was just that! A huge challenge. One of the biggest challenges at first was simply the warm-up laps. It brought me back to my school days when we had to run laps around the field for PE and how much I hated being last all the time and not being able to run far at all without being out of breath and having my knees scream in pain! But I kept those thoughts at bay and did what I could and walked! Yes, I walked ALL the laps for the first few weeks until one day I decided to try to run some (with the support of my new best friend, my Enell bra!!) I realized that I could run a bit and I felt good about that. Each class I tried to run just a bit further until I could run an entire lap without stopping! That is when it all became clear! I WAS going to be able to do this! I ended up being the overall winning mommy for the 6 week session which was an honor I had never imagined would be mine! Wow what an amazing start to a new path in my life!
However, September came, back to work teaching in Armstrong and no more bootcamp. I felt lost, so I tried to come back evenings but the drive to Armstrong from Westwold and back at the end of the day and into Kamloops in the evening was too much! I was literally devastated and started falling back into the mode of hating myself and beating myself up on the inside every time I made a poor food choice which just led to many more poor choices! When Sabrina sent me an invite to join the end of session celebration even though I hadn’t been a part of it, I broke down. I felt like I was letting her down by not living up to the “winning mom” status she had given me months before! I felt like she should take it back and give it to someone who deserved it! Not me! It took awhile and a long discussion and visit with Sabrina over coffee before I was able to pull myself out of that awful place and get back to that place I found with my google search. Our Facebook group helped to keep me up to date with what was going on and I found out that I would be able to come back to bootcamp because a new session was starting and it just so happened that I would be able to participate on my 2 days off!! Just what I needed, just WHEN I needed it most!
And here I am. Down 45 pounds and 17.5 inches since I started. Proud of myself and what I have overcome and what I know I will be able to overcome with a continued focus on my health and well-being. Not only am I getting a good workout at bootcamp, being a part of this group is also providing me with the tools to work with the mean little voice on the inside that likes to bring me down every now and then! Lately, right after we finish a workout, or I finish a Zumba class or a session at Curves, I have noticed an overwhelming sense of emotion take over me, bringing me to the point of tears. I can’t remember ever having the feeling before and it is hard to describe. It wasn’t until driving home today in the wonderful sunshine that I suddenly was very clear about what it is. It is that negative voice inside of me getting weaker and weaker as my body and my mind gets stronger and stronger! That is such a wonderful feeling and that is where I am today. I know tomorrow might be different and I know I will always face struggles and obstacles, but this is today and I feel confident in the tools I am collecting in order to deal with whatever comes my way...