4) I will make sure that I am present in the documentation of my family. Not only will I take more pictures, but I will be in more pictures and I will hire a professional at least once a year to capture our entire family (me included).
I attended a funeral yesterday to celebrate the life of a wonderful woman and an amazing mother. It was a beautiful memorial to the woman that she was, the lives she'd touched, the fun she had had. At the end there was a slideshow of her. Her with her family, her children, her friends, doing everything she loved. And all of this got me thinking.
She was not a small person and it could have easily happened that she skirted away from pictures, took them instead of being present in them. But each and every picture had her there, smiling, laughing, loving, enjoying life.
Afterwards, it struck me that if something happend to me would my family have those same pictures to share and remember by? How many times have I run away when the camera came out, taken the pictures of the fun times or put off family photos until I was smaller. I probably have only a handful of pictures, per year with my kids and almost none of my husband and I. Some of what is taken I have deleted with shock and horror and the rest were never taken.
How would my 2 year old even remember who I was when she is older if there are very few pictures of me and only videos from my childhood. Even at 5 and 7, the boys memories would fade over time. I am not part of any of our family memories because I am always the one behind the camera... basically in print I do not exist and a lot of that is my own fault.
So that has to change. No matter how unflattering the picture might turn out, no matter how I am feeling about myself at that particular time.... my kids wouldn't care.
Time to stop worrying and start being present.