About the time I reached the step portion for the second time in our circuit I felt the overwhelming urge to ball my eyes out. I looked around the room and wondered if I would ever be able to do what everyone was doing? I felt completely incapable.
I am at least double the weight of most the other Fit by Design participants. Usually this is just one of the things I deal with on a daily basis. I am almost always the biggest person in any room. This particular day was the most noticeably different I’d felt in a long time.
During the hour, I noted how quickly and easily everyone moved around the room to the different exercises - and there was I, lying on a yoga mat, like a beached whale, waiting to be rolled back out to sea.
As I hoisted myself up and on to the next exercise, I let a few tears go.
I tried pulling myself up on the inverted row. There was no amount of “You can do it” self chanting that was going to change the fact that I could NOT pull myself up. In that moment I realised, as much as I hate to admit, some things are just not possible for a gal of my size.
Against the odds, I kept trying.
I KEEP trying.
Even when my emotions weigh me down, I still consider myself the lucky one. I found a constant source of motivation to improve myself. The ladies at Fit by Design always encourage me and keep me going – so, from one boot camper to another, thank you!