We are under constant bombardment from the media about losing weight and how easy and quick it should be. I have caught myself browsing through the unrealistic headlines, ready to buy into the “Lose weight FAST” stories - Ever hopeful that I could speed up the process.
I know I can achieve my goal of 200lbs, even if it’s one pound a week. I will get there.
I think about food ALL the time.
I crave things that are terrible for me. Sometimes I am so hungry I feel empty. Everyday I work to improve my odds at beating this problem. I plan my meals. I write down everything I eat. I have a single minded focus on where I need to get to. I plan my long term goals. I rewrite my goals. I pay close attention to my weight to see if I am on track. I watch for triggers that lead to an eating response and avoid them. I have success. I fail.
And sometimes I am still hungry. Sometimes I still feel empty and still want to eat a cake…. And by cake, I mean the whole thing.
Let’s face it, no one wants to see real magazine headlines.
“EAT LESS and WORK OUT MORE and notice the results OVER MONTHS”
In the past I have restricted calories, taken pills, gone on fad diets, had shakes for breakfast, lunch and a healthy meal in the evening and every other different diet in between. Every time I ended up returning to my old bad habits and gained more weight. This time around I have learnt what was painfully obvious from the beginning.
The truth that I never really wanted to see: Because I always wanted to be able to have my cake and eat it.
The only way to lose weight and keep it off is to change the way you eat forever and combine it with exercise. For me, it means I cannot associate food with anything other than the fuel that my body needs to run efficiently and healthily.
This is the real challenge.
So I will continue eating simple, wholesome foods. Exercise for about 6 hours a week, at Fit By Design Boot camp and Zumba classes. I will continue to stay focused and am aware that the battle is not over when the weight is lost, but will be a life long process and even then, I am hoping that biology will not trump tenacity.
The struggle is daily and even though I could literally cry about the food I wish I could eat. A lifetime of self indulgence is not going to change overnight… which is why the slow process of getting fit might just be my winning ticket to the lottery of girl vs food.